This isnt the ideal post I wanted to share this early in the blog but I am so unbelieveably happy, greatful and relieved that this is finally happening.
For anyone who doesn’t know me personally here’s a little back story on why this is so important to me. Eventually I’ll go into more detail about this but I just want to focus on the positives right now.
About 3 years ago I started smoking marijuana with my ex boyfriend, just socially nothing serious. Sometimes a joint here or there with my parents, but I was never in my life dependant.
At the 3 year mark of my relationship, things took a turn for the worst, and we started abusing recreational and prescription drugs. The main one was Fentynal patches. When you abuse opiates like this, you lose your appetite for days at a time. Not only wasn’t I eating (for 3 days to a week sometimes), but one time while I was pretty messed up, my pizza grew a face and started attacking me. Not really though, you know?
After this, I found out that I had thyroid cancer. Now, when you look at the labels on Fentynal patches it tells you that if you have a thyroid problem of any sort not to use them. Not only was I using them, but I was smoking them. How fucking stupid of me?
So after going through 2 surgeries, one round of radiation and a partial eating disorder, my body is pretty messed up.
I still wont eat for 2 or 3 days at a time however it is crucial to eat while taking certain medications. I am nauseated 70% of the day, everyday, and eating around people gives me extreme anxiety.
So, after 2 years of suffering, honest suffering, mentally and physically. Struggling with myself. My brain constantly pulled in different directions. I can put it all to rest. I will no longer be anxious around food.
As of January 9th 2016 I will be a liscenced medical marijuana card holder in the province of Ontario. I am so proud that I am alive, I have made it through 2 of the worst things a person could deal with, back to back. But I persevered.
Now it’s my turn to be an educator. To teach and listen to people who are struggling. To just give a helping hand to someone who is at their lowest of lows.
For the first time in my life I am living.
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