Okay, I’ve succumb to internet trends once again. Heres our attempt at cutting open stress balls with a ridiculously hot knife.

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Hello everyone and welcome back! I am happy to announce I am now three months cancer free! That kind of positivity is fueling me to make informational posts/videos like this. Today, we’re going to talk about medication, specifically: Synthroid.
If you’re like me, and approximately 200 million other men and women around the world who suffer from a thyroid condition, you’ve probably heard of the pill Synthroid or some other form of synthetic thyroid hormone. In Canada alone, every 1 in 10 people are affected by a thyroid condition, and at least half go undiagnosed and untreated. It’s heredetery, and even though more than four women in my family currently have some form of a thyroid problem, none have had cancer as I had.
I’ll go more into the science behind the thyroid in another video/post, but since my medication was finally stabilized I really wanted to focus on this topic today.
Synthroid is a man-made hormone to help counteract the effects of hypothyroidism or underactive thyroid. The main ingredient in this specific pill is Levothyroxine Sodium (the generic brand of Synthroid is simply called Levothyroxine). It is used to normalize and restore balance to the body. If taken properly that is.
Synthroid rages in dosages. Personally, I’ve taken even single one to finally get to where I am now. Your endo will pay around with doses until your body finally accepts it anf finally starts functioning normally once again. In the adjustment period, I’ve found that the symptoms are mainly; trouble getting to sleep, and then trouble waking up and staying awake, no appetite, and motion sickness that leads to dizziness and nausea. YOU play the biggest role in the process of your endo adjusting your medication. You need to be diligent when taking to ensure you and your endo have correct and accurate results. If you aren’t taking these properly, your body will hate you and start to not cooperate. In my experiences, not taking my pills makes me feel anxious and lethargic. Either that or I’ll sleep myself into a coma. It’s your responsibility to take this pill so you can work with your endo to recieve the correct doseage.
Synthroid comes in 12 different dosing options, ranging from 0.05mg to 0.03mg. and like I said your endo may play around with whatever works for you. For example. I started off with the 0.05, and within the year I went right up to 0.03 and now am taking 0.125 twice daily (once before bed and once first thing in the morning) to sporadically give me more energy throughout the day.
This brings me to my next topic, you must take synthroid on an empty stomach and within four hours of taking any other medication. Failing to do so will lower your bodys ability to absorb the pill properly.
So basically, with hypothyroidism your thyroid hormone is underactive, or too low. (Boooo!) This annoying little pill we have to take replaces all of the functions our thyroid did for us before! It helps to normalize and stabilize our thyroxone levels.
All in all, PLEASE remember to take your Synthroid, on an empty stomach! If you have any questions, feel free to leave them in the comments below. Also, if you haven’t already, please share this post & video to someone who may need this information.
AND PLEASE, if you or anyone you know suspects a thyroid condition do NOT let it go overlooked. It can end more tragically than it needs to.

Easy No-Meat Fried Rice + TUTORIAL



PREP TIME: 25 mins
SERVING SIZE: served 3 adults

*everything is lightly chopped, bite-sized.
2 cloves garlic
1/4 cup onion
1/2 cup carrot
1/2 cup portabello mushrooms
2 cups instant rice
3 tsp margerine (or butter, oil, spray, something non stick)
1/4 cup soya sauce
1 tsp paprika
1/2 tsp ground ginger
2 tsp soft tofu
1/4 tsp salt *less salt because the soya sauce is extremely salty.
1/2 tsp pepper
1 tsp sesame seeds (for garnish & extra texture) 

1. cook rice. follow instructions on the box to make as many servings as you need, but it’s a 1:1 ratio. needs to sit, off the heat, covered for 5 full minutes. fluff with fork when done.

2. in a large pan on medium heat, melt 1 tsp of your non-stick of choice. sauteé your onions and garlic until they start to turn brown. add in spices.

3. add in 1 tsp more of your non-stick and stir in the rest of your vegetables.

4. once all together, add in your last 1 tsp of non-stick and stir in your rice & soya sauce.

5. combine and let sit on low heat until ready to serve. serve by topping with a little extra soya sauce, pepper & sesame seeds.

6. ENJOY! 🙂


I do not own the music in this video, the music is:

Song: Jensation – Joystick [NCS Release]
Music provided by NoCopyrightSounds.
Video Link: https://youtu.be/vpvytpRa_tQ


WTF is B.U.WHY? 


I’ve always wanted to do a random series on YouTube, just little episodes building or playing around with mundane things. Whilst wondering around the dollar store yesterday, I originally was looking for small jelly toys to cut open. Kids eat that shit up. Anyways, on the very bottom shelf of the childrens toy section, I saw these little bags with interesting looking vehicles on them. They felt very heavy to the touch, almost like a steel or metal. I was sold, these were going to start the series!

Upon bringing these home, the main focus was coming up with a name for my little “show” . I didn’t want anything generic or anything that was already taken, however I really liked the name “Worth It?”. Damn you BuzzFeed! Since this particular upload goes up on Sundays, we thought of Sunday Funday, one of the ideas was Building With Ash… I went back to the drawing board and just browsed my YouTube homepage for ideas.

A notification from Pinterest popped up in my notifications, it said “New D.I.Y Ideas For You…” and it clicked. D.I.Y… something that can be condensed into an acronym! I buy these items to build, use them to see what they are, and ask myself why did I buy these? Build it, Use it, Why did I do this?  When I pitched this idea to the boys, it was an immediate yes! It just sounds good when you say it! B.U.WHY?

In this video, the two little items I purchased essentially ended up being model go-karts. These are definitely good for the little engineer in you. I’m 23 years old and found great enjoyment building these. They end up looking just like the video, but the instructions are good for nothing. Also, if you have sausage fingers, like me, it’s just a little bit more of an added challenge. 😉

I’m going to link the video here CLICK ME because I’ve added a giveaway to the video. To enter the giveaway, all you have to do is be subscribed to me and leave a comment on that particular video of your favorite emoji. {EXAMPLE: 👽} I will pick a winer by Friday January 20, 2017 @8pm. Giveaway is open anywhere, as long as you follow the rules accordingly. Good luck!

Thanks for reading, thanks for watching – a new episode of B.U.WHY? is out every Sunday! As well as my Tuesday & Friday videos! Like & subscribe and tell me what you think!

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Lush Bath Bomb Demo – “Shoot For The Stars”



I had always walked by Lush and complained that “this store gives me a headache”! However, once I actually sucked it up and walked in, I was bombarded by the most delectable scents. I was relaxed.

I have an extremely hard time calming down and relaxing. For me to lay in bed and fall asleep takes ages, but the second I sat in that bathtub, the sweet smelling steamy water hugged my body and I was ready for a nap.

A beautiful mixture of blues, with peek-a-boo gold stars around the top – leaves the bathtub feeling like you’ve just stepped into the role of Ariel. With feet of course.

For the first bath bomb I’ve purchased, and used – I give this one a definite 10/10, for smell, color and cleanup – none of the glitter stuck to the tub! I definitely recommend for someone who is just getting into the bath bomb craze.


Happy New Year – Love Yourself!


Happy 2017 everyone! It has been quite a while since I sat down to write a blog, but here I am. New year, new me. *chokes and cringes*
This Christmas I honestly made out like a bandit, however for New Years I was sicker than ever, and am still feeling the effects of that.
Just writing here to share the first video that I’ve made since December 20th! In this video you can see everything that happened from Christmas Eve until New Years Day, also you can hear about any and all updates coming for the new year.
This week coming up marks the first week of my permanent upload schedule. You can look forward to hearing some really embarassing stories, seeing my any and all beauty and lifestyle videos, and celebrating my health journey with me! As well as getting to know me along the way.
I am more than excited to be sharing my life with all of you, I’ve always been so shy and timid and this year I AM BREAKING OUT OF MY SHELL.
So, thank you everyone for your support, and leave a like & comment if you enjoyed the video. Happy New Year, AND LOVE YOURSELF.



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Merry Christmas, Happy Non-Denominational Holiday & Happy New Year!